I generally write about mythology, but today I felt like sharing certain things that have been bothering me and some realizations I had.
It has been almost three years that we, as a nation, have been fighting with the up rise, mutations, nth number of variants and waves of COVID virus. Any time you switch on the news channel or go to any social media app, the first thing you get to see is the disastrous effect of this virus. People losing jobs, homes, means to live and in the worst case scenario, their lives.
I returned to India as I had lost my job. The new job search became tedious and depressing. Countless hours in front of the screen and applying for various positions became a routine. As the number of rejections kept increasing, my confidence kept sinking. Suddenly, everything around me turned negative. Waking up daily to the news of family members or a friend passing away due to COVID. Adding to this was the amount of rejections, the guilt of not spending enough time with friends and family and the fear of not being able to provide for my family
In addition to this, a new trend had started. Want to know what? Well, it was that of who has been keeping themselves updated by learning new courses, cuisines and the king of all Online Weddings. The new normal started flooding up the internet. All you could see was everyone uploading new dishes and how tasty it was, certificates of different courses and who got married to whom. In all this, I lost perspective of what was really important in life. After a lot of self-pity, I came to a realization that should have struck me a long time back. I was safe, at my home, leading a healthy life, having my family close to me daily. However, instead of enjoying these moments, I was wasting it all by thinking of all the lost opportunities.
Finally, I stopped giving so much importance to rejections. Putting myself in a routine, writing and talking about it helped a lot. I started spending more time with my family, dove into all the new normal trends- Cooking and learning new courses. I could read all the books that I never found time to read.
It has been difficult but it gave me a great perspective to life. It taught me how privileged I was to afford a lockdown, how great it was to have a family near me, and how amazing it was to have the love of my life with me safe and sound. I don't say it was all good and great because people have been less fortunate than me. But all I want to say to everyone out there is that I learnt how little time we have in our hands and instead of running in a rat race,we should stop sometime to take a pause and appreciate what we have and celebrate all the milestones we have achieved, small or big. To be happy and grateful for what we have in the present. Because today I understood the importance of the moment ‘Now’, because Today is truly a Blessing.
